You were always the one
you always took precedence
and yet you remain quiet
absent and defiant
what have i done?
Did I hurt you
Did I make you feel small
Was it my silence?
Artworks by Dyck Cedino, Poetry by Teegee Villanueva
“We seek and we find; merely to find and then seek. For every beginning there’s an end, but what end brings is a new beginning. We are the essence of creation and the embodiment of destruction: this is the duality of our existence. We create in order to make sense of our own destruction. We constantly seek to find meaning; only to discover that we are meaning itself; mirror images of the vast infinity found within every single being. And the only consolation we get for this life is our own death. This is mainly the reason why I create art, cuz I believe that as much as we are representatives of destruction (physical or ideological), we must also create to make amends with this duality of existence. And this is how I move forward.”–Dyck Cediño
Prints by Dyck Dedino.
We spoke about ideas. It was ideas–and authenticity–that mattered in art (let me remind you). He told me his was about human suffering, trauma from past experiences. Those were the things that fueled his drawings, his ink-on-paper pieces, his baggage…basically. Mine was about honesty–about the state of things. Capturing life on film. It was simple. It wasn’t complicated. We spoke for twenty minutes.
Artworkd by Dyck Cedino, photography by teegee Villanueva
I have bipolar disorder. Run of the mill. The ups and downs, the ragin’ and the feelin’. Sometimes it’s too much. I’m going through a passing sadness. It’s not going to be forever but…it will be for a while. Depression fuels my art; it inspires creativity.
I just wish I didn’t feel like I was dead inside.
Addendum: I’m going somewhere far away tomorrow. I’m scared. I’ve never traveled on my own to be honest. But I want to break free from all of this. I have to do it somehow. For my happiness.
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Artwork by Teegee Villanueva
“I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I’ve loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough..”
–Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook
Art by Teegee Villanueva. Follow me on Instagram: @teig